Transitions

A friend of mine resigned from one of his previous jobs. I asked for his reason. "It's not my season anymore," he says.

There are some things that has been in a corner of my mind since the beginning of the year:

Number 1: WORK (is my season really coming to an end? If yes, where is my next assignment?)

Number 2: MY SPOUSE (I truly know that this is my year, no doubt about it!)

Number 3: MINISTRY

The reason I said number 2 is that when my friend resigned and he moved on to a different location, he found his wife-to-be. (I can say that he is so led and so keen to God's seasons. He found the one!) Am I to talk the same direction? Still, I don't want to miss out on God's best for me... Where is that guy?! (I promised God I'd be more patient on this one! *lol*)

Talking about ministry, I really don't get it why people can't seem to learn from the old stuff they went through before. (Some people will get this, some people won't). What I'm trying to say is that one group suddenly took over a small group February of last year. But it didn't work out well. People were already noticing that the "atmosphere" wasn't the same with this invasion. So finally, they gave it back. My team worked hard together, even if there were just a handful of us every Wednesday night. But the "atmosphere" returned to normal, or was even better this time I believe.

Then January of this year, it's not an another invasion, they called it a merge. So okay. I am a humble servant following my leaders. I do what I am told and I never ask questions. We went throuh a crazy week # 1 of merging... I notice loopholes in the first meeting. As the eyes and ears of the previous group, I brought them to the attention of my supervisor. He basically told me in my own rendition, "Stop talking to me about these things. Go to the new leader. He will deal with it."

My mind goes "WHAT?!" Wasn't it even enough for me to cry my eyes out for this group? Not to enlarge my part in all of this, but aren't we good enough to support this group? Another lingering notion in my head was, "Why is it that we are not kept in the loop for this MERGE?" Everybody was just too one sided about this. Not asking about our opinions, details on what works for the team. It's NOW always about who the better talent than all the rest. If your talent does not reach their "TALENTADO" meter, your opinion doesn't count!!! Your talent DOES NOT COUNT!!! So for everybody who was doing one thing before is doing absolutely nothing now. BECAUSE THEY AREN'T GOOD ENOUGH AND THE LEADERS ARE NOT TAPPING THEIR OTHER SKILLS TO HELP INCREASE THE MINISTRY.

Are these people blind? Are these people deaf? Are these people more that human beings that they can do everything themselves? *sigh*

What can I do? I am just a mere volunteer. MY OPINION DOESN'T COUNT.

I haven't been attending the meetings for the past 2 weeks now. I don't want to be USED, thankless after your services. Far as I know, they may even be talking about me behind my back. But I don't care. Let them talk their brains out if they even have one.

I once asked that supervisor,"Why is it that this group always makes me cry?" My heart hurts to embrace the team that has now been scattered all over.

I know that they will notice. They will notice, I promise you, the thinning of the attendance of the group they merged. For no apparent reason, other things have suddenly become more important than the merge, the transition that isn't really a transition, but an INVASION.





































Kinda random, isn't it. Life is so random. But only our God knows that this thing we call random is actually part of His bigger plan and purpose for our lives. (Forgive this blabbering lady. The guts need to be spilled.)